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What do you REALLY want to do?!

CCBC students, I have something to ask you. Come closer, it’s important. Okay, are you ready?

What do you REALLY want to do?!

I ask because I recently found myself in a situation where I was not doing what I wanted to do. I was stuck in something I hated and at first there seemed to be no way out. But, there was. No, I wasn’t stuck in a ditch on the side of the road. I was stuck in a major that was sucking the life out of me.

Ever since I began my journey at CCBC, I have been a Nursing ADN major. I went through my first year of prerequisites, passed my HESI with flying colors, and was accepted to the nursing program right off the bat. In the summer, I was so excited. I thought my life was finally starting. Soon I would have a career that would be well-paying, and I love biology and science, right? Nursing is just a science! I thought it would be perfect for me. But when the fall 2012 semester rolled around, I received a slap in the face from reality. Nursing was nothing I thought it would be.

It takes a special person to be a nurse. I’m not trying to scare anyone from not being a nurse, but all I’m trying to say is that it wasn’t right for me by any means. I would come home from my clinical days crying because I hated it and I hated taking care of patients so much. No matter how much I studied, I couldn’t understand the information and I was bombing all the tests. Before you know it, it’s the last day we can drop any classes (with teacher permission) and the same day we begin to register for the spring semester. That day, I found myself in the Student Services Center offices asking one of the secretaries for a dropout form. With a few tears in my eyes, I went up to my teacher and asked her to sign the form for me to drop her class. My teacher knew that I wanted to drop out of nursing, but we thought that I was going to finish the semester up. I will be straight up. I would not have passed if I did not drop out. I would rather have a W on my transcript than an F any day. That day, I walked away from CCBC vowing to never return to the nursing building, and so far I haven’t.

I knew that I needed to return back to school for something, anything, just to get me some type of skill I can use in the real world to find a real job one day. One night, on my dropout couch (the couch I laid on as much as I possibly could while I was a dropout), I scrolled through the list of majors until I found one that caught my eye. Visual Communications: Digital Media Design. One thing about me is that I LOVE cameras. I love photography, video editing, and any type of design behind a computer. I don’t consider myself an artist – I consider myself an editor, and I have considered myself as such ever since I was in middle school. When I found that CCBC offered that major, I registered for my new classes as soon as possible, and met with someone to officially switch my major. Once I did that, it felt like a giant weight was lifted off my shoulders and I could begin my life again.

Now, CCBC students, I have these words to tell you. As you are graduating high school, they make it seem like you have to know where you’re going in life before graduation, right? Your guidance counselors, your teachers, college recruiters, they make it seem like you need to know what you want to do as a career before you begin it. Granted, they are right, but they don’t seem to understand how difficult it is to figure out something that you want to do and will want to do for the rest of your life. Students, you are not fully mature when you graduate from high school. And non-traditional students, you may have been out of high school for longer than we have, but the advice I’m going to give you will still work.

If you’re stuck in a major that you hate, that makes you cry at night, that makes you want to pull out your hair on a daily basis, that you’re not understanding no matter how much you may study… Change it. If you want to do something else, do it. It is never too late to start over and begin again on a new course. Take my advice and you’ll save a lot of money on Motrin PM.

So, students, what do you REALLY want to do? Are you doing it? Do it. Love your life. And chase your dreams.

Cassie, student blogger

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